first time

dear diary,

there is always a first time for everything, rite? and yup.. this is the first time i write to you without having a single idea what i wanna write beforehand, haha.. you maybe asking yourself right now, if i don´t know what to write, why still bother writing.. yeah, i dont have any idea right now, but it´s just i feel like i wanna start something here.. it is the same, like if you chat on msn or fb.. sometimes you can´t just know what to write no? or maybe is it just me? haha.. well, i should learn how to open a conversation from expert soon.. *sigh* ^^
you must have already guessed it.. yeah, i´m bored like hell. sitting here in front of my lappy, watched a indonesian´s movie : Punk in Love (but it´s very amusing indeed). and finished the task eko told me to do today too.. it´s to find some hörverständnis-text to test the new kiddos.. hohoho.. and now, i don´t know what to do.. sleep this soon? haha.. just forget it.
ok, let´s go back to 2 days ago as i called my mom and dad.. i found out that they have prepared something for me if i fly back home this summer. really sorry dad.. mom.. 2 months ago i shouldn´t have told you that i´m positive come back home this year.. instead of i´m not 100% sure yet. but now, í´m sure that i can´t go there this summer. if all goes as i planned, i should have made it and enter my hauptstudium at the end of summer and i must prepare my internship certificate for that. and if something goes wrong with my exams, i can still take repetition exam in the summer holiday. that´s why i think, it´s best that i stay here to prepare even for the worst and fly home next year instead. i know.. it´s kinda a little bit dissapointing, preparing something and in the end, i can´t come home.. aih.. sorry once again, why did i said positive in the first place.
but it´s really true, voices over phones are really not the same as seeing you both in person, talking while facing each other.. starting missing you now.. danger2.. homesick syndrom detected?? thought i am immune to it. hahaha.. the right thing that i could do right now is just i can´t make you both dissapointed any further. i´ll make you proud.. worry not..
it´s a PROMISE...
love ya...





Quote of the day :


"Promise a lot and give even more"

Anthony J. D'Angelo quotes (Founder of the Collegiate EmPowerment Company and creator of The Inspiration Book Series)