first check point

dear diary,

YEAAAAH... i weigh 102 now... finally, 10 kgs weight loss target achieved... i don´t know if you could imagine it, but those 10 kgs is really.. really... really.... hard for me to lose.. this 1 month has been really a tough month..hmmm.. maybe if i could write it in indonesian language, i can write more.. but let´s forget the idea, CL could write her blog in german.. i won´t lose too..(joking..) haha.. i´ll try to write mine just using english, since i´m trying to improve my english, hoho.. i know my german is so-so, but let´s focus for one of this language first this time, haha..

hmm.. where was i again? oh yeah, about the tough month, hehe.. i missed many yummy foods already.. and have been triying hard to resist the food in the kitchen. haha.. but in the end, i´m really satisfied with this result.. although i see myself is still nearly as fat as before, i can feel the diference a bit. my jeans that were tight are a lil´ bit loose now, they fit better.hohoho.. nice..

the last jog practice (which was yesterday) really worn me out. it was just two of us (ying2 n me) who jogged yesterday morning. we did the 3 x 12 minutes program around halensee. it was my first time to jog there. those area is the place where rich people live. we jogged slowly and chatted while keeping our rhythm, we were passing by many extravagance houses each with their own pretty design and luxurious cars too.. it was not really tiring that morning, we enjoyed the new environment so much.. and then after finished the jog practice and parting with ying2, i took the train home. i didn´t know what get into me, but an idea struck my head.. i talked to myself, it´s still 9.30 a.m. and i could do another round, so i stepped off the train at tiergarten and started jogging on the way home. it took me another 3 x 12 minutes with 4 minutes walking break each.. hehe.. that´s means i have jogged 6 x 12 minutes that morning. hohoho.. when i told waryanto about it in the afternoon, he was like saying "no way.. i simply can´t believe it".

is it that hard to believe that i jog that much? haha.. now i realize, maybe running is my hidden desire. lol.. we just have to march forward and without thinking much, we can´t think another thing while running, it can ease my worry about anything else, we were just suppose to look forward, run to our own goal.. haha.. i even walked home from uni today. took me exactly 1 hour walk. when it supposed to be just 12 minutes with train. hehe.. now i know how much is the difference of the time duration.

by the way, talking about jogging, there is a friend of mine want to join in if we jog again this sunday. she is an exchange student from australia. her name is clare, she seems really interested to jog since i told her about it last week. she said she lives in tiergarten and it´s so close to the jogging place, she want me to tell her if we want to jog there again next time. although she is an exchange student, she speaks pretty good german, but also sometimes she forgot that we are in germany and started to speak english to me.. but she still prefer if i talk in german to her tough.

ouw.. i have wrote a very long entry already this time.. hope you´re not bored to death from it..hoho.. keep your fighting spirit.. and i´ll of course keep mine too, this is just my first check point. the finish line still up front. my diet will goes on in order to keep me stay fit n healthy. need to lose another few kgs till the end of the year.. see ya.. good night.. and happy vesak day...

today´s quote :

“Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.”

Buddha quote

Gibt nicht auf, du bist gleich da... ,,Silbermond"

hello my dearest diary,

how long has it been since your last update.. hehe..

curious about how is my diet going so far?hehe.. 3 days ago, i was on the scale and it was after i done my twice a week morning jog. the scale showed that my weight was 102,3. yosh.... that means it will be just another 0,3 kg and my 10 kgs weight loss target would be completed.. should saw my face that day and see how happy i was. but then.. just a day after that, i can´t believe my eyes.. my scale showed 104,0.. how can it be? what have i done wrong? is it that i jog too much those time (i jog 3 days consecutively without break day) or is it because i didn´t stick to my daily menu.. instead of eating my oatmeal as breakfast, i ate bread and sometimes rice as brunch lately (i´m kinda bored with oat). dunno which one was the cause. huh.. but ok, luckily i found out about this "weight gain" rather quick. and i pushed myself a little bit harder as i jog yesterday. and the night walk from nauenerplatz till pankstrasse does wonder too.. lost 1 pound from it. decided to take the walk coz the next train from naunerplatz would only come in the next 10 minutes. i kinda lost my way home that time.. haha.. walked a very long way in order to find the next train station (Osloerstrasse), but still didn´t seen any sign of the subway station. was covered in cold sweat and it was dark also.. was in doubt. haha.. i keep walking and believing, the path i choose should be right already, and in the end, it really is.. hoho.. although i didn´t find the osloerstr station, but the pankstrasse station instead. it was the next station after osloer, haha..
(the next morning, i´m on my scale and my weight was 103,5)... jiayou andy.. target "102" sighted already, hehe..

oh... i almost forgot, wanna show you the music video that i found recently in youtube. it´s a indonesian song about losing weight. unfortunately it´s not in dangdut tone http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dangdut, hehe..

hmm.. now i´m trying hard, how to post the video here.. dunno if it´s work..






Today´s quote :

“You cannot travel the path until you have become the path itself”
Buddha quotes (Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta, the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)


and since it´s vesak day in the next few days, i will give you more as bonus, hehe


“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.”
Buddha quotes (Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta, the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)

first time

dear diary,

there is always a first time for everything, rite? and yup.. this is the first time i write to you without having a single idea what i wanna write beforehand, haha.. you maybe asking yourself right now, if i don´t know what to write, why still bother writing.. yeah, i dont have any idea right now, but it´s just i feel like i wanna start something here.. it is the same, like if you chat on msn or fb.. sometimes you can´t just know what to write no? or maybe is it just me? haha.. well, i should learn how to open a conversation from expert soon.. *sigh* ^^
you must have already guessed it.. yeah, i´m bored like hell. sitting here in front of my lappy, watched a indonesian´s movie : Punk in Love (but it´s very amusing indeed). and finished the task eko told me to do today too.. it´s to find some hörverständnis-text to test the new kiddos.. hohoho.. and now, i don´t know what to do.. sleep this soon? haha.. just forget it.
ok, let´s go back to 2 days ago as i called my mom and dad.. i found out that they have prepared something for me if i fly back home this summer. really sorry dad.. mom.. 2 months ago i shouldn´t have told you that i´m positive come back home this year.. instead of i´m not 100% sure yet. but now, í´m sure that i can´t go there this summer. if all goes as i planned, i should have made it and enter my hauptstudium at the end of summer and i must prepare my internship certificate for that. and if something goes wrong with my exams, i can still take repetition exam in the summer holiday. that´s why i think, it´s best that i stay here to prepare even for the worst and fly home next year instead. i know.. it´s kinda a little bit dissapointing, preparing something and in the end, i can´t come home.. aih.. sorry once again, why did i said positive in the first place.
but it´s really true, voices over phones are really not the same as seeing you both in person, talking while facing each other.. starting missing you now.. danger2.. homesick syndrom detected?? thought i am immune to it. hahaha.. the right thing that i could do right now is just i can´t make you both dissapointed any further. i´ll make you proud.. worry not..
it´s a PROMISE...
love ya...





Quote of the day :


"Promise a lot and give even more"

Anthony J. D'Angelo quotes (Founder of the Collegiate EmPowerment Company and creator of The Inspiration Book Series)

nothing is impossible

dear diary,

yup.. surely you have heard those sentence many time already before... what i want to point out is that many things that we always "think" it cannot be done, or it´s really impossible for us to do.. but have you ever think a little about what we heard in our daily basis. for example, you sure have heard many stories from somebody.. there were sometimes stories that really hard to believe, its impossible that someone maybe do something like that.. but, what if, it´s really happens, that means it can be done actually rite. the key is, just believe and have faith in yourself and you´ll be alright. if you don´t believe in yourself, how could you achieve anything. in realizing our dreams we can really just depend on ourselves, hmm.. not really, ok, its about 90% of it = ourselves. and of course we cannot ignore the supports from others (family, friends, etc..). thats importants too. really thankful for all that have supported me till now.. btw, wondering why i write all of this? hehe.. i think i´m kinda good at motivating others.. but just others.. it seem i can´t motivate myself at all.. haiz.. need some help here.. maybe this entry can do wonder and motivate me as i read it again.. hopefully.. spirit up...! ^^

Quote of the day :

“Our dreams are made of real things, like a shoebox full of photographs.”

Jack Johnson quotes (American Singer and Guitarist, b.1975

looking forward to sunday

dear diary,

i have just returned from jog training today. had to wake up at 6 o´clock this morning.. hohoho.. luckily i´m too spritful that i coped with it. we were practising according to the schedule that i have mentioned 2 days ago here. i think it´s pretty fun and not so straining, it´s good.. i have to loss the weight i gained after nasi ayam dinner yesterday.haha.. i remember now, why it has been about a year that i havent cooked it. it was still a failed try, tasted not really good. can´t cook it like my grandma does. her was 10 fold better. everyone at home would always ask for second bowl for it. ^^ miss grandma cooking.. haha.. should i fly home this summer? hmmm..
btw, enough of that, let´s come back to the topic before hehe.. thanks for the jog participants : eko, erick, cl, tuako and ying2. without you all, it would be not so much fun. next this sunday? we will try the 6x5 minutes instead this time. here is once again the training schedule :

first week = 6 x 4 minutes jog each with 2 minutes walking break (✔)

second week = 6 x 5 minutes jog each with 3 minutes walking break



Quote of the day:

“Coming together is a beginning. Keeping together is progress. Working together is success.”

Henry Ford quotes (American industrialist and pioneer of the assembly-line production method, 1863-1947)

a long weekend is coming....

dear diary,

yup, long weekend is coming near, since this thursday is an ascension day. that means no uni and no works too.. my prof even said, "since thursday is a holiday, why dont we eliminate the friday lecture, that way, we could have long enjoyable weekend". yay.. thank you prof.. hehe..

now is the time to plan what to do.. hmm.. actually i have thought about this a little bit before while i was swimming this evening. i think, better start jogging again this thursday (coz i skipped 2-3 times already, haha). and summer is coming near too.. in summer i dont think the swimming pool will be open everyday, except the outside one. so, better start to train how to jog right for the incoming summer. and here is what i found on some magazine the day before, it´s a training schedule for beginner, hoho..

these schedule consist of :

first week = 6 x 4 minutes jog each with 2 minutes walking break

second week = 6 x 5 minutes jog each with 3 minutes walking break

third week = 3 x 10 minutes jog each with 4 minutes walking break

fourth week = 2 x 15 minutes jog each with 2 minutes walking break

and if anyone want to tag along, it should be fun to try this schedule together.. hehe

btw, earlier i did some googling about what we should write on a blog if we have no idea what to write, kekekekeke.. and found this :

Personal blogs

The personal blog, an ongoing diary or commentary by an individual, is the traditional, most common blog. "Personal bloggers usually take pride in their blog posts, even if their blog is never read." Blogs often become more than a way to just communicate; they become a way to reflect on life, or works of art. Blogging can have a sentimental quality. Few personal blogs rise to fame and the mainstream, but some personal blogs quickly garner an extensive following. One type of personal blog, referred to as a microblog, is extremely detailed and seeks to capture a moment in time. Some sites, such as Twitter, allow bloggers to share thoughts and feelings instantaneously with friends and family, and are much faster than emailing or writing.

nice.. although the pride part is pretty funny, hahaha..

quote of the day :

“Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.”

Bill Cosby quotes (American Actor, Comedian and Producer. b.1937, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, USA)

aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhh.....

dear diary,

please dont mind what i write above, i´m just testing my voice, er... i mean my typing.. ^^

just got back from office, ermm.. not really.. i went shopping on the way home, and bought many fruits from there (oranges and kiwi). have tried the oranges just now, sour but tasty (it´s name interest me the most, it is called juicy oranges, got curious after saw that name, hoho..), ate 3 of it although i dont like eating sour things. and that was supposed to be my dinner for tonight, and yeah 1 apple in addition to it. i dont know if it is too much or maybe it´s insufficient to call it a dinner. the main point is, i´m full right now.. ^^

and aaaaarrgghhh.. my scales stuck at 106 kgs this morning.. why222?? have i eaten too much last weekend? hmm....

yeah, it seems so.. haiz.. ok, i´m going to swim tomorrow, anyone joining? someone? or maybe everybody? kekekeke...

oh yeah, almost forgot to tell you something, it´s about what happened in the office today as i went there in the afternoon. chief said to me, "you all are very hardworking last weekend, you finished all the job, well done.. the other co-worker were really happy too for what you have done"

and i was like... just smiling while thinking (how should i respond? i don´t know what to say, i´m happy but blank.................................) need to start googling about how to react if cheif complemented you, haha.. but i did say thank you at the end. dont know if its enough to cover all the compliment though.

ooh, i think i should really start to write a book next time.. :(

Quote of the day :

had a hard time for choosing between these 2 quotes. i´ll just share it both to you then..

“Believe it can be done. When you believe something can be done, really believe, your mind will find the ways to do it. Believing a solution paves the way to solution.”

David Joseph Schwartz quotes “It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about.” Dale Carnegie quotes (American lecturer, author, 1888-1955) have a nice day all... hope tomorrow will be even better than today for us..

Happy mother day mom n every mother out there too

dear diary,

i´ve already told myself, i´m writing a blog not a book.. however, why did i spend at least 2 hours for every entry that i posted? hmm.. now i know how suck i´m at writing, huff.. hopefully, it will take shorter time from now on.

let see, what i want to share with you today. oh, yes, this morning i´ve been reading a sport magazine that i "borrowed" from office. i find that, some of the articles were really interesting, there was an article about depression risk. do you know, if we like to eat hamburger, white bread, pizza, fries, milk products, beer, sugar containing products, we have 50% extra risk for depression.. better be careful yo.. and eating more vegetables, fruits, fish, and wholemeal can lower the percentage. Especialy important are apples, coz they contain vit. C, E and fibre which called pektin that responsible for healthy digestion and it can also lower our cholesterol level.

i didn´t major in food technology for nothing, do i? hehe..

this article is for those who wanna stop drinking beer, hope this with motivate you more..

and for the one that eats apples everyday, you can keep eating them.. ^^

oh yeah, mother day is on this sunday.. happy mother day mom.. miss ya *blush*.

and i was planning to buy an orchid this evening, since it´s her favorite flower. i had a funny little idea that i planned to take care of it here on my desk, and maybe it will remind me how mother taking care of me and i´ll shower my care to it, haha..

but as i passed by the florist, i said to myself, hmm.. its seems expensive. and since i´m not sure if i can really take care of those flowers (got no experience ah..), i decided to buy it tommorow @netto, it should me much cheaper there, haha.. is that ok mom? your son saves your money, right? hehe..

*edit 20:06, just coming back from netto, they didn´t sell any orchid with root, just some cropped one. then i visited 2 florists in the way home, orchid cost 13 euros there, huaaa.. sorry mom, better buy you 4 boxes of chocolate if i come back home next time, hehe..*

Finally i went to swimming pool today, although i went there alone. since mumu n tuako skipped again today,haha.. i swam 40 times 50m (its about 2 kilometres!!) for 1 hour 20 minutes.. i know that was not fast enough, but it´s my best time already, hehe..

btw, it has been a long time, that i havent talk about how my diet program going, dont worry, i havent give up yet, hehe.. this morning my weight was 106,0 kgs.. but i think, tommorow my weight gonna be a little bit more than that, coz cl cooked today. it´s kinda like little party for her passing the B2-language test. congrats once more yo.. the "kwetiao-theng" was superb.. you sure, that was your first time cooking? i think talent does indeed passed on within family.. hoho..

heard that nini is sick, sakit opo ni? hope you will get better soon, so that we can rumble on sunday at koebcke.

aih, it has been 1,5 hours already, duh... ok, i´ll end it now.. btw, thanks for coming by..

P.S. if you find any mistake (i hope its not plenty) or if you dont understand what i was saying, please dont hesitate to pm me via fb, msn or ym.. thanks ya..

Quote of the day :

“I regard no man as poor who has a godly mother.”

Abraham Lincoln quotes (American 16th US President (1861-65)

a cold rainy day with happy memories

dear diary,

it has been pouring since this morning here in berlin.. as i went to uni at the afternoon, it was 7 degree celcius, brrr... and after that i must go to work too in this uncomfortable weather.. *sigh*

bought new umbrella as i left off work, since the rain seems pouring harder. i felt like, i haven´t use any umbrella for more than a year or maybe 2 years already. i think, thats why i couldn´t find my umbrella this morning (it´s obvious, haha..).

and because of i´ve planned to go swimming after works, i did went to swimming pool even though the rain seems like it doesn´t want to stop. While walking, i was suddenly thinking about the past, that was when i was still in my freshman year of junior high, was walking alone in the heavy rain fall (exactly the same situation i was in this evening) on the way home from private lesson. a small boy with big umbrella, i was like, didnt care much about the world that time, just keep walking, spinning my big colorful umbrella and enjoying the dark sky and the watery road.. i felt happy back then, dunno why, did i really like rainy day that much? hhmm.. or is it not just me, every kid should have feel happy while playing in the rain, don´t they? it´s good to be just like kids, they seems so happy just because of the rain, and maybe many2 other simple things too.. thats happiness over simple things is the same happiness that we adult can feel ourselves. we can feel sad easily and mostly, but not easily happy. why? just ask yourself then.

(suddenly remembering that budi has once commented on my fb pic.. why i´ve always smiling even when i was a small kid.. haha..)

life does full of happines when we can realise it, just think about when we were a kid. ^^

may we all find our happiness everyday, and by thinking happy things that happened to us today, it can at least help to ease away a lil bit of the sadness that can burden our thought, our mind and our heart.

Side story :

as i was drowned in my happy junior high memory, i arrived at the swimming pool, but.. the swimming pool was closed for public today.. whaaatttt??.. i´ll never gonna go to swimming pool on thursday ever again :)

and while i was going home, i got good news.. feel happy for you CL, you have pass your first trial.. i know you can do it since you´re a smart n hardworking girl.. ^^ keep your good work and keep pursue your dream, k..

Quote of the day:

“We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.”

Jeremy Irons quotes (British Actor, b.1948)

long time no see....

dear diary,

sorry that i havent opened you up recently. been busy these past few days.. visited bhante 3 times within those 4 days..hehe.. i like it when bhante talks about dhamma and stories.. now i know few more things than before, and dont worry, i would like to share it with you though. ^^

its too bad that bhante cant stay here in berlin for too long, he left to stockholm already this morning.. may we see each other again sometimes in the near future bhante. (a friend of mine has even talked to me about some plan to fly to stockholm to visit you in the next holiday, haha..)

ok, now lets go back to the story that i mentioned to tell you before, hehe.. i have one that still stuck in my memory till now. i´ve always thought that we as a human being, we just need not do bad things, and then our life will maybe left out from misery, but thats not enough though, we cant make new good karma that way, we need to do "kebajikan" in order to maintain and make new good karma that benefit our next life or maybe for the future present life.. so, just keep doing good deed.. dont "ke ke bo khua tiok, ke ke emcai" haha.. just keep pile up your good deed from now on. may all beings be happy..

quote of the day:

“Only a life lived for others is a life worth while.”

Albert Einstein quotes (German born American Physicist who developed the special and general theories of relativity. Nobel Prize for Physics in 1921. 1879-1955)