Repent

worry not, this time it isn´t something mellow-mellow anymore. it´s just that i have been in deep thought lately(read= since this morning), and i realised, i really need to repent for all my mistakes i have done knowingly or unknowingly and therefore promised that those mistakes mustn´t be repeated in the future. The story starts like this,

honestly, at first, i didn´t believe a true friendship between a guy and a girl exist. I believed they were just either normal school friendship, or just some friend that can´t be called close enough or some friendship based on hidden feeling as the actual purpose or many more.(yes, call me old-fashioned). But i was wrong, a friend has proven it to me, that it does exist. it is really a priceless precious friendship that i almost lost and unable to see it clearly because of my selfishness. Therefore, i, andy, will try not being my oldself anymore and i am going to be a better andy that cherish those friendships, cherish all my friends and families and not doing dumb things, so that all of them will feel comfortable having me around and also, i must be more cheerful and mature to face everything that laying out there. yup, this is a man promise. and i know i still lacking a lot, that´s why i still need some support if you willingly want to help this lost lamb, haha.. i am looking forward to the new me soon

all of this admissions actually sounded childish and kinda sounded like being made by a fourth grader schooler. But, inspite that, i want to see the world with a new view now, even if it´s gonna be a new restart of my friendship, i am looking forward to it.

Btw, i am writing all this while on studying mode for my exam on thursday. I don´t know what to prepare anymore actually, i have been studying for more than a month intensively already. Hope i can pass this exam without trouble.

Quote:
"If you believe you can, you probably can. If you believe you won´t, you most assuredly won´t. Belief is the ignition switch that gets you off the launching pad."
Denis Waitley

"For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don´t believe, no proof is possible."
Stuart Chase

Should have put the meat on the lower level of oven instead. Babo..!



the original picture from the online recipe

 

my not really successful attempt with burned skin T-T





but luckily it tastes awesome except the burned skin ^^





Cooking class on thursday

huff............................................................... *sigh*..*sigh*..*sigh* what should i do?
sigh, i think i am giving a cooking class every week since january now. do i have that much spare time? no, i don´t. my very big exam is coming. it wasn´t my intention to give those cooking classes, but it was just out of my kindness to answer anyone when i was asked how to cook this or that, in the end comes the question, "could you come to the kitchen for just a moment?". poor you, how can i leave you "alone" without any knowledge about cooking. And in the end 90-95% of the cooking was done by me. plus cleaning service. how did that happen? haiz... poor poor me.. hope you doesn´t need my help anymore real soon in the future. i hope you can cook everything by yourself faster, like starting tomorrow, hohoho.. andddddd i just lost my 3 hours of studying..  kyaaa....
But it was all due to a greater good. happy cooking to you next time.

R.E.B.O.R.N. (07.02.2012)

Dear diary,

I wish i can be reborn to be a person who can always stick to what he has set to be his goals. I admit that i sometimes have decided to do something, but in the end i failed to stick with it. got no pendirian ("stand point"), hoho.. but aren´t people must always be flexible and dynamic? hehe.. kidding... Anyway, first starting today i want to set some smaller aims/smaller steps and goals and try to stick with it till the end anyhow. hopefully this way i can get used to this (sticking to my resolution). Let me be reborn! ^^ thanks for your support...!

First time...!

i was trying to iron my shirt this afternoon. (i just used dict.leo to find out that "Hemd" is actually "shirt" in english, thx leo..). Yeap, you don´t hear it wrong, i ironed my shirt. It isn´t my "first" first time actually, but it was my first time after 9 years, if my first attempted try ironing my half-wet-uniform in my first year in high school was counted as my first time ever.hehe.. and please don´t ask what had happened that morning. hohoho..

Btw, doing this now made me realize, wow.. ironing ain´t easy at all, it tooks me about 10 minutes to iron 1 shirt, and in the end it doesn´t seems very very neat either. the maid i had back in home has done better job and of course faster. it makes me wonder, does ironing also need talent? ^^ i really tried to make the shirt even, but somehow it still feels uneven.

here is the proof

begining

end~~~

doesn´t sound like i have achieved big things in my life with me ironing this, but i just want to appreciate and say THANKS to my mom and aunts also that sometimes took over the maid job to iron my shirt. appreciate it and thank youuuu.

n.b. i am craving for an apple right now, but i just ate my dinner.  :(:)(  nguik.. nguik..
how long has it been since i ate apple? hmm..

Hello old friend!

am feeling a little bit down right now. As i was browsing today, i came across a profile of my junior high friend. As long as i remember, he was sitting right beside me for a year or two i think. He was kinda like a close friend i suppose. Seeing all of his profile picture tells me that he is doing well already. He works as an engineer on site. I don't know why but i envy him so much that i am still nobody compared to him and that i am also still a student. I still haven´t get skills or whatsoever that can guarantee my future yet.. Huhu.. Can i really do well? Ok, now is not the time for asking such question. I must really do well on my upcoming exam now. Just take these feeling as an additional fuel to work hard. harder, harder and even harder... Prove and *finger-crossed* be astonish by yourself. And i know i haven't gave all my best yet. Just need to be careful that it doesn´t come too late and then regretting it, ok?

Btw, there is another story that happened this afternoon that i want to share also. I was chatting with a friend and jokingly said, i´m through with studying, i give up, i rather perfect my cooking skill and open a roast pork shop in my hometown. And my friend suprised me by saying: it's a real waste that you go studying to "GERMANYYY" just for that. hoho.. After hearing it, now somehow i feel burdened by it. Well, ok, conclusion : I definetely must not become nobody!!!