Stopped growing

Hey dude, long time no see. Sorry, i havent visited you for quite a long time already now. Think, this gonna be my last post though. I lost the willingness to write, this seems not so fun to me anymore, hoho.. I think blog has made me lost my social life in some way, kidding.. Haha.. But, i do realize after having you around and have written all my worry before, you did help a lot, but what i really need is a friend that i could trust and see me trust him/her. I need to more open to some more people rather than just you alone. I find myself talk less to all my friend. Dunno if you could understand this all, but this is goodbye then. Promise to visit you sometimes, but will not adding entry anymore. Hope we are cool. And thanks for all the frequent readers. Thanks for your support too. Hope i can be better growing from now on.

And yeah, i've stopped growing from for quite some time already, i realised that, but somehow my mind doesnt want to confirm and accept it.

Many many thanks guys T-T

01.06.12 - 08.06.12

Venice, Barcelona, Paris, Brussels, and Amsterdam please be nice to us the three musketeers. I hope everything will go smoothly and according to the plan. nervous.. nervous.. yup, i really need this break, i was too depressed by many things lately, especially the pressure and burden from my uni life. should take this chance as a try out for some europe´s cities before choosing the places my family should visit next year. two birds with one stone. hope i will come back to berlin next week with new energy and new motivation and also new environmental as well (finger crossed to be able to get and move to the student accommodation room starting july). all the best for you peeps.. and lastly, hang in there and cheer up youw! you are strong, okay!

my type of girl?

yeah, i was being asked this question a few days ago by a friend. hmm.. didn´t know that she was that curious before though.. hehe.. sorry..

actually, i don´t have any specific type of girl on my mind, do i? i dunno, sometimes i am just amazed seeing smart girl, what i mean isn´t exactly that she must be very good in studying at school but she is just smart in some way, smart attitude and smart thinking maybe some of the example.. yeah, smart girl attracts my attention i think. that is my number one, haha.. but, please don´t take this seriously though, this is just what i answered at that time, without giving much thoughts. i definetely can´t decided my own fate and said i would only want to marry just this type of girl. hehe.. just want to write down all of this as a memento from this piece of time.

second, pretty isn´t the exact word i want to say, but what i mean is that, she has fair skin, which guy doesn´t want this huh? ^^ this question is real, i am really asking guys out there. =)
third, i don´t think writing humorous as a type is right, since everybody has his/her own definition of it. but at least she could understand my humour till some level. i am not saying i am very humorous kind of guy, she doesn´t has to laugh at every time i am at it but seeing that girl laugh/smile together with you because of your effort trying, what could have been make you happier than that? ^^

anyway, after saying i don´t have any specific type of girl in my life before, but in fact, i do have, and it´s shocking me as well ;) and they are that much as well, fiuh.. ok, gotta stop right there then. fiuh3x...

Missed my keyboard

hey you, ^^

omg.. omg.. has it been ages already since the last time i used my keyboard to fast-type for a chat. yup, i haven´t been logged in my msn and ym for like months or maybe half year already. and all this time, i have been uploading my blog and chats with all my friend via my phone (whatapps, imessages, facetime). i never log in using my laptop anymore. i forgot that how nice my keyboard really felt as i type and type. love having this feeling back coz of today´s occurence. Today, while i was bored thinkin when should i start preparing for my chinese test, a friend that has been busy all this time texting me to go online on ym. the time goes really fast as we chat and without realising it has been 3,5 hours already. glad, there are still some friends that are this nice accompanying me and talked for this long. missed this too. thanks yo.. ^^ nite all......

Final in berlin

Wow.. How long has it been, since the last football frenzy happened here in berlin. Made me thinking back to year 2006 when german was hosting for the world cup. It exactly the same atmosphere as today in sbahn train. People are wearing their favorite team shirt and emblems. They are singing and cheering. Yup, today is gonna be a final match of german league between Bayern munich and Dortmund. Seeing their fans right now, i should definetely watch the match later at 8 p.m. Hmmm, wondering whycould they influence me this much into watching.

But this gave me an idea, my family gonna visit me next year, and maybe i should prepare a ticket for next season. Since my dad is a really really huge fans of bayern, and he gonna love to see his favorite team playing live here in europe. Oh, we gonna have a really good time. Oh, I am excited aready.
Have a nice day all.. ^^

People do judge a book by it's cover. The one who don't are the gutsy people who dare to look inside and understand what the other person that being judged actually feelin

ummm..

Wanna moving out... i hope with me moving out, i can strengthen back all our friendship relationship to a new level with each of my housemate. Sometimes it gonna be easier to be friends when we are not living together. Lover or siblings are exceptional cases of course. ^^ And i can have new experience by meeting more new people also. I am wishing for it. And i need time to think alone first. Let all of us keep fighting to define what our true happiness is. Peace...

My birthday wishes...!

Happy 25th anniversary andy... Oh, that's very nice of you. Thank you, thanks everyone. I always think, 25 years old is the age where i really became adult at last. A really mature one.

I'm thankful that i have achieved many good things these past 25 years. Have a lot good and close friend, always have nice relationship with my family member, met a lot of good and nice people that support me also. But above all, what i am wishing for this year is that i can be more expressive toward all my precious family and friends since i am sometimes not contacting them enough, coz i am personnaly terlalu cuek, and just love to enjoy my free time alone. This much i could change rite? So, family member and friends please prepare that i am gonna put more attention to you all, be ready to chat with me everytime i think about you. Since my happiness is that you are happy having me as a friend too.. Hahaha.. Let me pursue me happiness, okay? Hehe.. Hope you can bare with me. I want to be the most fun person you know. ^^ hopefully.
Dear god, please grant me this wish. Kekeke

My iphone is broken today

And yeah, it hasn´t even been full 1 years and 4 months yet, but from today on, i  can´t turn off/on my iphone anymore, since the power button can´t be pressed suddenly. Now i know the reason why apple has only give just a year warranty. dam#*%§$". From what i´ve read in forums, now me without a warranty, i need to spent about 200 euro to fix the button. This must be the reason why apple throwing out a new product each year huh.. i´m thinking, should i trust apple anymore in the future like this? i don´t know le...

but that was the one and only heart breaking news for today i think. It was a busy day today, although i have no lecture today (the prof going some official trip out of town today) and i was not at home all day long, i was busy shopping with juju. The plan was, she gonna invest a quarter of my early birthday present. And it was a watch of my choice.. thanks ju.. We met at 12 noon and ate lunch at ishin, also stopping by her favorite cafe in friedrich to get some caramel macchiato, ate ice cream at haagen dasz in B5, and early birthday dinner at makoto. This was kinda like one of some effective way to let out stream after yesterday exam. And it made me think less (less worried) about my iphone. am thankful to have a friend like you, and it was a nice fun day. But can´t do this often though, may go broke sooner or later that way. haha..

Fossil, isn´t it nice?

Ciao and rest well everyone.. i need to find some alternative solution for my iphone a.s.a.p

snack & coffee time while studying on weekend

shouldn´t be thinking about gaining weight on such time... ;p

To: budi

Bud, how are you? btw, i am having chinese lesson this semester. I applied for level A.1.2. But the teacher want to kick me out already last wednesday, haha.. she told me, that i am too good to be in that class, hahaha.. gini2, ternyata wa ada bakat utk kul ke shanghai juga rupanya. But, the real problem is, i can´t read nor write chinese writing at all. haha.. And here in TU Berlin, we don´t learn it, they just teach us the alphabet one. Btw, the chat box you requested are on now. huehehe.. Use it wisely, wakakakaka... ^^

S.A.D

stop loving me so much mom... i wish i can say this to her sometimes. huh?? why, you ask me?

for an overseas student like me, i doubt no one has never experienced the homesick disease. As for me, the first time i experienced it, was after exactly 3 months studying here in berlin. I felt, i don´t belong here, far away from my dearest family. Why would i left them while they (read: especially my parents) unconditionally love and adore me. And i think, i wasn´t ready to face the reality yet, that out here nobody can´t really replace their existence. Or maybe you can say, i haven´t found someone who can make me feel that way.
i dunno exactly why am i being like this right now, i was able to overcome my first homesick just after a night, by telling myself, this is already happening, all i can do was to keep busying myself to not put much thinking to it anymore. It was an successful attempt, but after these years, those feelings keep coming back for these past months. As i keep dilligently reading this blog of a friend of mine, i think i could understand how her feeling is, how lonely she is to be far from home. Err.. how to say this, since i´m not a good writer, i maybe could hurt someone feeling by writing what i am about to write, i am so sorry, but if you understand me well, hope you can think positively that i of course don´t blame all mothers for being affectionate and love her children so much, they can´t help it. But if they, could show or give a little bit less love to us, we could be less sad right now, am i wrong?

I think i have write this in my other blog entry before, that i think my dad loves me as much as my mom or maybe a little bit more. He worries and cares about everything very very much too. And, my mom is the type that doesn´t show her love every time and place as much as my dad does. Even, i remember i told a girl i like that i care for her and worrying about her pretty much, and she told me, stop right there, you becoming more like your father that way (i believe i have told her a story about my father showing very much worry and care to my mom and their sons).hehe.. As for my mom, i called home once in a month minimum, she likes to tell stories about what happening back home, she keep updating me things in a way that i cannot miss a single one that happened there. She can goes on for about an hour or maybe two sometimes. But, she never told me things like she love me or she missed me. But she never forget to ask, how am i doing here and have i lost some weight already. These 2 questions is like her trademark questions already. hoho..

I wonder what do you do, when you missed me. Did you cry, mom? I know, i never saw you cried once, not even at my farewell as i was coming back here after my holiday last year. But because of the bond between us, mom and son, i felt you must be crying a lot, but somehow you never show me. Knowing this, i was sad. I remember, dad and some of your sisters (my aunts) ever said, that you have never been able to hold your tears, you cry easily.hahaha.. And truthfully, since i am a guy, i never cried once here, but there was a few time that i was so sad that i almost can´t hold my tears flowing down.

Could i find a girl that can be as good as you? I missed being home before starting to write all this, but after letting it out from my heart, this sadness vapored away already somehow. At last, i can sleep soundly right now. Let´s face the morning with more smile and happy thoughts. good night all

Its friday 13

I dunno if it's called bad luck or should i be happy or sad. But my class got canceled today after i walked there and met some of my friends walked back in the halfway. Oh, what a day? Was walking there full motivated and of course it´s raining. Let´s see whats coming next today and i have even get to sleep till 11 today, as if it wasn't enough andy ;)

It's a weapon

When words can be used as a weapon, it could really inflict a great damage to oneself. And it is even greater if it cones from your junior that saying things as if all he said about me were the real. I should really select who to be friend with from this experience.

Thank YOU

It's really thanks to you. Words alone really can't describe how thankful i really am now. ^^

Wait..? No wait?

Have waited for a bus in the rain for an hour. And since the bus did t seems gonna show up, i decided not to wait anymore longer and i start walking home. After 500 m walking (in the rain) the long awaited bus passed me. They were 6 of them in total going in long line like a train. How come, by the time i decided to walk, i made a wrong decision and by the time i decided to wait, i waited for nothing.

Should i waited my whole life for you too? Until you recognise me as a man? Or i should wait no more??

2,8 km on 01.04.12

2,8 km is my limit today as i drank too much pool water already coz of energy deficit. Hope my stomatch gonna be ok.
And yeah, i am fooled by cats early this morning. Damn april mop, wek... ;p

The seventh...!

I love swimming more than anything right now. I've lost 7kgs in these past 2 weeks. At this rate i may lost another 10kgs in a month. Exited to the max.. ^^ i will go to swimming pool everytime i got free time i suppose.

Btw, TU-ers please don't forget to stick your new semesterticket ab morgen. It's april already.
Have fun and enjoy your new semester everyone. ^^

Now i really need to rest first, my energy depot has depleted...

Men are always looking for the person that want to listen to him, aren't they? Where could i find mine? :|

The fourth day

Hiya.. Long time no see!! It's been long time since i came back here. Please understand, i've been rather busy, hehe.. Today is my fourth consecutive days swimming. I planed to become a fish this week, to swim 7 times a week and for 2 hours long each time. It sounds very tiring but it really is. Haha.. My legs feel numb right now as i walk back to the central station. But hey, see the bright side, now it feels kinda like summer already, i went out wearing just t-shirt and flip-flop (sandal). And as the result of my swim routine i have lost 3,5 kg this time. Remember last time i gainer 6 kgs? Yup, now i need to lose 2,5 more for payback.

Oh, one last thing to write down. I didn't know that one motorbike gonna cost about 15 million rupiahs nowadays. I was thinking about 8-10 millions. Someone has stolen my little brother motorbike last saturday. And i think, in jakarta, there is just 0,1% chance to track it down. Now, he is begging my parents to get a new one soon, hope he gonna promise to be more obedient in the future. Since last time my mom told me, this little brother of mine only calling home if he is got problems, otherwise he doesn't care to call her.

AAARRRHHHH...!!

yup, that´s me screaming out loud. hope nobody bothered hearing those. ssshh.. you´re right, i should have kept my voice low. Nope, i wasn´t screaming out of nowhere just because i am bored. But, the thing is, like you know, i gonna have an exam in 8 days time. But i still can´t catch up to all the stuff with my studying pace. I´m thinking of giving up every now and then, really...  Hmmm.. still, i will try my best.

Stressing stuff aside, today i have a rather good news other than my kinda greyish uni life. the good news is, i gained 6 kgs in this past 2-3 months. yay? AAAARRRHHH!!!!
No wonder, i´ve been sitting on my desk studying, taking a break, and then studying, eating all on the same spot i am right now. Ánd i´ve never gone to swimmingpool this month. No... no.. no.. no.. starting tomorrow, i should go to pool on wednesday, and jog on weekends. I promise...!
hope this way, i can kill a bird with 2 stones.or the other way around. the first one, i can lose some weight, and second, i can gain more fresh air for my almost overheated brain. Brain2.. please just hang in there a little bit more..!

Sabar2.. Org sabar disayang Tuhan ^^

This saying is really true. I was just about to explode of anger this evening. But luckily i didn't. Yeah, tellin you this, i maybe sound scary, but i am not that scary as i used to be anymore. As a kid, all of my siblings are scared of me coz of my bad temper i had. lol.
Anyway, back to the topic before, i was almost exploded because of the small matters that have been bothering me these past few weeks that accumulated in my mind and in addition to it, is my tiredness from these past days, i was going to release my anger on some people. But after being patiently calming down for just a bit, i realized, what i was going to do isn't the right thing after all. If i am exploded just then, that means i am a bad person. And people tend to regret the bad things that being said or after being angry at others. Just need to let some small matters go (don't let it accumulating in your head) and lead a happy life. Credit to a friend that teachs me this kind of thinking a little back while ago. You're my role model of course ^^

I am sick but i like it

Snort2.. Sakit pada tulang rusuk setiap batuk, pilek, sakit kepala, demam jadi satu. I am in really bad condition indeed. But well, i like this feeling, coz now i have a reason to do nothing all day long and i can sleep as much as i want without feeling guilty wasting my time. I just still need to rest, stay at home and needn´t to go anywhere. Hoho.. But i do hope i will get better soon.. Btw, i am lucky, i was sick after i´ve done my thermo 2 exam. Thanks for your prayer, i passed my biggest nightmare already, the exam that make me couldn't sleep even for 1 sec on the night before the exam day. Mmm.. Maybe because of this happy event, i even like my condition right now, even i am sick. That should be the very logical reason, right?
ok, my next exam could wait until i got better. there is still more than two and half weeks time to prepare. i hope you do well in your exam too.. fighting!!! wishing you all good luck from my warm bed.. ^^

Repent

worry not, this time it isn´t something mellow-mellow anymore. it´s just that i have been in deep thought lately(read= since this morning), and i realised, i really need to repent for all my mistakes i have done knowingly or unknowingly and therefore promised that those mistakes mustn´t be repeated in the future. The story starts like this,

honestly, at first, i didn´t believe a true friendship between a guy and a girl exist. I believed they were just either normal school friendship, or just some friend that can´t be called close enough or some friendship based on hidden feeling as the actual purpose or many more.(yes, call me old-fashioned). But i was wrong, a friend has proven it to me, that it does exist. it is really a priceless precious friendship that i almost lost and unable to see it clearly because of my selfishness. Therefore, i, andy, will try not being my oldself anymore and i am going to be a better andy that cherish those friendships, cherish all my friends and families and not doing dumb things, so that all of them will feel comfortable having me around and also, i must be more cheerful and mature to face everything that laying out there. yup, this is a man promise. and i know i still lacking a lot, that´s why i still need some support if you willingly want to help this lost lamb, haha.. i am looking forward to the new me soon

all of this admissions actually sounded childish and kinda sounded like being made by a fourth grader schooler. But, inspite that, i want to see the world with a new view now, even if it´s gonna be a new restart of my friendship, i am looking forward to it.

Btw, i am writing all this while on studying mode for my exam on thursday. I don´t know what to prepare anymore actually, i have been studying for more than a month intensively already. Hope i can pass this exam without trouble.

Quote:
"If you believe you can, you probably can. If you believe you won´t, you most assuredly won´t. Belief is the ignition switch that gets you off the launching pad."
Denis Waitley

"For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don´t believe, no proof is possible."
Stuart Chase

Should have put the meat on the lower level of oven instead. Babo..!



the original picture from the online recipe

 

my not really successful attempt with burned skin T-T





but luckily it tastes awesome except the burned skin ^^





Cooking class on thursday

huff............................................................... *sigh*..*sigh*..*sigh* what should i do?
sigh, i think i am giving a cooking class every week since january now. do i have that much spare time? no, i don´t. my very big exam is coming. it wasn´t my intention to give those cooking classes, but it was just out of my kindness to answer anyone when i was asked how to cook this or that, in the end comes the question, "could you come to the kitchen for just a moment?". poor you, how can i leave you "alone" without any knowledge about cooking. And in the end 90-95% of the cooking was done by me. plus cleaning service. how did that happen? haiz... poor poor me.. hope you doesn´t need my help anymore real soon in the future. i hope you can cook everything by yourself faster, like starting tomorrow, hohoho.. andddddd i just lost my 3 hours of studying..  kyaaa....
But it was all due to a greater good. happy cooking to you next time.

R.E.B.O.R.N. (07.02.2012)

Dear diary,

I wish i can be reborn to be a person who can always stick to what he has set to be his goals. I admit that i sometimes have decided to do something, but in the end i failed to stick with it. got no pendirian ("stand point"), hoho.. but aren´t people must always be flexible and dynamic? hehe.. kidding... Anyway, first starting today i want to set some smaller aims/smaller steps and goals and try to stick with it till the end anyhow. hopefully this way i can get used to this (sticking to my resolution). Let me be reborn! ^^ thanks for your support...!

First time...!

i was trying to iron my shirt this afternoon. (i just used dict.leo to find out that "Hemd" is actually "shirt" in english, thx leo..). Yeap, you don´t hear it wrong, i ironed my shirt. It isn´t my "first" first time actually, but it was my first time after 9 years, if my first attempted try ironing my half-wet-uniform in my first year in high school was counted as my first time ever.hehe.. and please don´t ask what had happened that morning. hohoho..

Btw, doing this now made me realize, wow.. ironing ain´t easy at all, it tooks me about 10 minutes to iron 1 shirt, and in the end it doesn´t seems very very neat either. the maid i had back in home has done better job and of course faster. it makes me wonder, does ironing also need talent? ^^ i really tried to make the shirt even, but somehow it still feels uneven.

here is the proof

begining

end~~~

doesn´t sound like i have achieved big things in my life with me ironing this, but i just want to appreciate and say THANKS to my mom and aunts also that sometimes took over the maid job to iron my shirt. appreciate it and thank youuuu.

n.b. i am craving for an apple right now, but i just ate my dinner.  :(:)(  nguik.. nguik..
how long has it been since i ate apple? hmm..

Hello old friend!

am feeling a little bit down right now. As i was browsing today, i came across a profile of my junior high friend. As long as i remember, he was sitting right beside me for a year or two i think. He was kinda like a close friend i suppose. Seeing all of his profile picture tells me that he is doing well already. He works as an engineer on site. I don't know why but i envy him so much that i am still nobody compared to him and that i am also still a student. I still haven´t get skills or whatsoever that can guarantee my future yet.. Huhu.. Can i really do well? Ok, now is not the time for asking such question. I must really do well on my upcoming exam now. Just take these feeling as an additional fuel to work hard. harder, harder and even harder... Prove and *finger-crossed* be astonish by yourself. And i know i haven't gave all my best yet. Just need to be careful that it doesn´t come too late and then regretting it, ok?

Btw, there is another story that happened this afternoon that i want to share also. I was chatting with a friend and jokingly said, i´m through with studying, i give up, i rather perfect my cooking skill and open a roast pork shop in my hometown. And my friend suprised me by saying: it's a real waste that you go studying to "GERMANYYY" just for that. hoho.. After hearing it, now somehow i feel burdened by it. Well, ok, conclusion : I definetely must not become nobody!!!

Back to the basic

i may be needing this table these days. p.s. you can buy me this for my upcoming birthday, okay? you needn't buy me anything else, just this will do and that way our problem solved too. hoho..

it all thanks to the technology nowadays, i always use a calculator or my phone to do every multiplication problem i run into, not only restricted to the tough question in exams, sometimes it's even for the simple question like how much is 8 x 7? hey dude, you seriously don't know how much is it? (whispered a voice in my head). well, i didn't ever imagined that i'm sinking this deep already.. where is the andy that being known by all the school teachers for his greatness in mathematics and english lesson since fourth grade in elementary school? where is he? where? btw, i dunno why english subject had to do with all this. why did i even mention about it here? i don´t know.. omg, don't tell me that my english falling behind too.. damn you voice. ;p

The hardship of living overseas

Here i am staying up till late night trying to call my parents and brother because of the chinese new year tradition (is a must of course, hehe). But it's really a pity that all i can do is just calling them and can't meet them in person. The worst part is, none of them picking up their phones. Haiz... It's really is my lost, that i ain't around and just depend on phone call. Is it too early in the morning that they are all still asleep? Hmm.. It can't be, i tried to call my granny and aunts place and they were up and picking up their phone(the good news is, they said they gonna send me red envelops, hehe).. Ok then, sorry mom and dad, i will try calling again a little bit later. Love you all.....!

Welcoming new family

my new handy has arrived, hehe.. Got some trouble with the shipment previously. It should have been arrived before 2012 but delayed for 20 days. Kayaknya lu hampir ditakdirkan ga pake smartphone bud. Haha.. Anyway, lu suruh wa tes sd cardnya, gimana ho caranya? Wa noob pake s2 nih. Emang bs pilih2 e ya, fotonya mau dispeichern di memory mana, kan ada memory handy n memory usb jg tulisnya di sini. Tp tak ada pilihan pilih e ar. Ok, wa tes utak-atik dulu lah. Biar bs pamer dikit kalo wa bisa dan pernah pake s2 ceritanya ntar, haha.. Be patient ya bud, smoga besok uda di pswt dlm perjalanan ke tmpt lu liao ini s2

Enlightenment day has come, finally....

Today must be an enlightenment day somehow. or at least as for me today is likely a thermodynamic enlightenment day. Hehe.. Why? Fyi, i have been sitting here occasionally for 3 weeks now(Guess? This is a place that most people went when they can't self-study at home). But i didn't fully understand what i was learning. But today, as i was doing another review back from the start and somehow i completely understand all the stuff i've been reading until now. Now, i just need to scratch all the question that i've been prepared to ask the prof's assistant. Scratch30x... Although i just came here in the afternoon, well, at least it isn't fruitless. Hoho.. Time to go home now? Kriuk2x...

Miss? Missing? Missed?

If you miss eating your favorite dish that you haven't tasted for some time, better follow your heart and cook it yourself.. ^^ slurp2.. btw, it tasted like a real deal also.. hoho

Spirit up

My internship report (Grundpraktikum) is approved by the prof just now. I am so happy, ga sia2 minta cap toko sama bokap, haha.. Ok, jetzt nur noch auf thermo 2 bis ende Februar konzentriere dann wird alles wieder in Ordnung. Spirit up!!! Hehe

Pro

dear diary,

the other day i was at computer pool at uni wanting to print some stuff, but unfortunately the prof hasn´t put it online yet (even after he promised putting it online before x´mas holiday). Well, can´t blame his holiday spirit also, can i? It just right then, that while i am bored and turning my head from the monitor and looked around, woah.. that place was fully packed with students busying themself doing some assignment with their computer. Some of them were looking very intensively at the monitor while rotating the image they drawn. And i think to myself, they must be architecture students. It seems pretty cool though, seeing how hardworking and serious they were and they really know their things and what they were doing, seems very professional to me, hehe.. Ahhh.. this is really uni life indeed, and i know, in the future i´m gonna miss this uni life atmosphere for sure. That´s right, i should really enjoy this kinda moment and start working harder to become a pro too in the near future, fighting....! haha..

i might need to sell my laptop

no.. no.. no.. it´s not because i´m in need of money. But, it´s just my iphone is really awesome. When you are or were my roommate, you would know that i rarely using my laptop for other purpose other than browsing wiki for exam preparations, reading pdf files for school purpose also, reading mails, doing messengers, youtube-ing, and also fb-ing and on top of that all, the main purpose of my laptop (only my roomate know this) is watching buffering video, mostly korean variety shows. hehehe...

fyi, my iphone has just celebrated her first birthday just few weeks ago (yes, she is a female). she really is really useful (didn´t even regret it once since i bought it), as useful as a computer and way more cooler than them. i read my emails mostly just from her (with her??), i am chatting with all my friends through her, blogging, fb-ing, browsing, etc..etc.. the "only" thing that i knew, she can´t do yet is playing flash video since flash player hasn´t been integrated to safari browser the only browser she has. She couldn´t show anything required a flash player. that´s means i can´t watch fb video, and most of the online buffer videos.. that´s why i still needed my laptop sometimes to watch them.

But........ it was just now, i found out that some of my korean variety show that was posted online didn´t require flash player.  yay... trying to watch it now on dailymotion. wonder if you were curious what i was watching, i am watching "we got married" show nowadays. i finished watching khuntoria couple episodes yesterday, and now i am attached to yonghyun couple, hohoho.. if you need something to laugh, this kind of show is strongly recommended for boys and girls out there.. ^^. ok, i should end this, and start watching it now while waiting my class to start. 45 minutes seems gonna be a short time thanks to my iphone i think. still, that means i really should sell my laptop.. ;p

Feeling sorry for myself and for her too

Dear diary, Truthfully, i knew it's gonna happen like this since eko has been given task by his family to look for apartment for the new kids. In the end, i dunno if he is putting much effort looking for one or just simply browsing about it, 3/5 of them ended up living by us which is pretty full occupied already. At first, there were 1 room that are vacant in our apartment, so i was expecting for just 1 new housemate. But well, i can't blame eko since looking for one place to stay isn't easy either, but he is just too ignorant to ask anybody for help from the start. Really hope that we can find new place for some of them soon. Just bear and endure with it then. P.s. i am just stating whats troubling my mind. hope nobody getting annoyed by it. BFN

Random thoughts@andy

People who judges you = people who doesn't love you. Why should i care about them? I am not being egoistic rite? ^^

Am living in a dream right now. Should i wake up? Or shouldn't i??

This is a dream rite?

@, #, DM, RT, RTHX, TMB, LMK, ORLY, IRL

this gonna takes some time to easily using it.. oh, well, happy new year btw. hope it will be a good start for both of us..
TY, BFN