Win it

Dear diary,

i just got back from my morning swim routine. hmm.. (how can it become my routine if i decided to swim just yesterday night? haha..). anyhow, while seeing the swimming pool, my mind suddenly wandering off to some swimming training hall that i watched in television some time ago. The athletes there train very hard everyday, in order to win in some olympic -look alike- tournament. They want to become the champion and get those gold medals. at that time i said to myself, what if they lose and all that efforts of hard training before will go in vain instead. Isn´t it very heartbreaking?

And then for quite some time now, i realise that all my life i´ve been thinking like that in everything i do, take studying for example. it´s not that i´m afraid i´ll fail at some subjects but what i most afraid of is that, i tried hard and gave everything i got but then ended failing.

but now, just like the old sayings, the older you get, the wiser you would be. i think my thought has been wrong all this time. the heartbreaking things should not be the concern at all. rather we should say, by trying there are actually nothing to lose. on the contrary after trying hard, you won´t regret anything behind.. and even sometimes when we´re out of luck that we maybe cant achieve what we want by trying hard, at least, we must count the experience we collected, i could tell you it´s priceless. so, better not stop trying harder from now on andy..

ok, i think it´s kinda boring to talk about how lazy i was all the time, ^^ sorry.. lol.. next, let´s move on. you know that i weigh 97,3 kg now? and it become my lowest weight record in the past 4 years, astonishing isn´t it? yup, these 2 things would be my top goals for now.. i will just focus on these 2 things. first priority still will be the way to change myself to be more hardworking in studying and the second is to lose my body weight more, although i think the second priority is easier to be done than the first one, haha..

btw, i should write more of my priority, but because of this 2 things up here is really a big achievement already if i could made it, i will just stay focus on that 2 first. and as for the third one, hm.. it´s for my better half out there, haha.. could you wait for me after i deal with these 2 things first. it´s not that i consider you aren´t important because i give you this third place in my priority list, but i would like to change myself to be a better man who can plan and see a little bit where and how in the future he gonna be first and then i will come right at you. so, don´t go anywhere, stay there and wait for me ok.. ^^

btw, it´s feel nice to let out what you think and feel to others and discuss it. Now, all the weight in my shoulder become lighter and mumu has agreed to be our next housemate in the near future also. problems are solved by that i think.

ok, now time for the quote of the day :

A man is not old until regrets take the place of dreams.
John Barrymore

last but not least, stay healthy everyone.. take good care of your health.. ciao..