dear diary,
lately i´ve been asking myself, where the old me has gone. As far as i remembered, i used to be very optimistic in everything i´m doing, included when i was preparing for my exams. but as so many years have passed, i find myself has changed much, i don´t have many confidence as before. Like when i was just studying intensively just 1 day before exams years ago, i know that´s not the way a real student supposed to do, but with the thinking like, i can do this, i need no more than a day, that the confidence that has made me passed all those tests so far. what i´m focusing in this entry, it´s not the 1 day before exams preparation, but the confidence, where did all of it gone actually? *sigh*
btw, talking about the old me, i have changed in another way too.. i think, i used to be very humorous, i could make practical jokes on almost every sentences i said. But nowadays, i dunno why, maybe because i watched too much comedy series (lol..), i find that my jokes aren´t that funny. that´s why i rarely telling anybody any, i simply kept it to myself, by saying, it´s not that funny, don´t need tell other people about it, and this make me kinda being a guy with no jokes to tell..haha.. togetherness (with friends or families) without laughter isn´t the way i wanna picture my life with. should start thinking a way for that too now.
despite of all this thought i had, by writing this now, i think i kinda know where the problem actually lies. i could have just change myself back to the way i was before, or i can just change to be better from now on. people do change, dont they? my exam is in 3 days (have been preparing for almost 2 weeks already), if it goes wrong, then i really really should change myself starting by making library as my second base after my bedroom and having "no study today, no gain tomorrow" as my life motto. hohoho.. think that would do it.
thanks for reading everyone..
Quote of the day:
Never be afraid of falling down, ‘cause when you stand on your feet again be sure you’ll be a different person.
~Author Unknown
I thought on a second that you would write in qotd something about the nature of changing.
AntwortenLöschenI think it is not really bad at all to lose your confidence about learning in one day, because you could have failed in the exam, have you learned in this way. It could work in days before, but SKS (system kebut semalam) is a no go for a student life. The stuff to learn is much much more and difficult for a normal human to take.
And anyway, I wont come visit you guys and eat there tomorrow. have something to do,
yup i know it can´t work that way. but what i mean there is actually, even after i studied for 2 weeks, it´s still got me nowhere near the confidence i had before.. well, the right thing to do from now on, is really study hard from the semester begin. that´s what i will believe in starting this time anyway. thanks for encouraging me btw..
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