cute girl that i've never met before: "you are really nice you know"
me: "na, i've never heard it before." hehe..(imaginatory)
me (in real situation): "yeah, some of my friend told me the same thing." (dalam hati: what for an answer is this!! omg, the answer is very nerd).
better prepare myself better next time.
Sonntag, August 03, 2014
Montag, Juni 09, 2014
acquaintances
i can't help but keep thinking that everybody just looking for me and write to me if they need something from me and then dissapeared after it is done.
but i was wrong. its actually my fault. i should also have to look for the others if i need help from them. and it's my fault that i don't need anything just yet.
09.05.14 Andy. *enlightment after this long time*
ain't i happy? hey, i am not sad, and then that means i am happy now rite?
is it the true difference between friends and acquaintances? am i really that lonely if nobody has asked me hi, how are you? what have you been doing? never heard about you anymore. am worried sick about you. but instead of that i just got messages about: hey, is it true? i want your confirmation about this, is that person really went back for good already? am i a reporter?
what about a simple how are you? you are too busy too even remember that huh
but i was wrong. its actually my fault. i should also have to look for the others if i need help from them. and it's my fault that i don't need anything just yet.
09.05.14 Andy. *enlightment after this long time*
ain't i happy? hey, i am not sad, and then that means i am happy now rite?
is it the true difference between friends and acquaintances? am i really that lonely if nobody has asked me hi, how are you? what have you been doing? never heard about you anymore. am worried sick about you. but instead of that i just got messages about: hey, is it true? i want your confirmation about this, is that person really went back for good already? am i a reporter?
what about a simple how are you? you are too busy too even remember that huh
Mittwoch, April 23, 2014
found you?
dunno if it's right to post it out here but i don't know how to deal with this. there wont be many people reading this anyway. Maybe after writing it down i will know what to do afterwards.
huff.. mm.. how to begin? ok, there is this girl that i think might have a crush on me. shocking isn't it? haha..
how do i know you asked? well, my memories isn't always very good. but i have told some of my friend about every of her behaviour for a while and all of the male and female friends concluded that she is indeed into me. well she may has showed many signals for me like for example she shared what her interests and what she likes with me, she asked me out to cinema everytime she was free, she came to my place and cooked for me without any real reason. she just came by as she likes i think. ok enough about that.
The real problem is, she is actually not bad. she's attractive, smart, and our conversations connects. I told a friend of mine a few days back that i think i should try to ask her directly, and bcoz she is too shy i might make a first move to see if we match each other. but my friend forbade me and said she is not a really good choice and mentioned that there are many better girl out there. this is because sometimes i asked him for advice and he also knew some of her bad characters that i told him before. she is kinda bossy and getting angry easily.
so, it was last week that she said she want to come to my place and asked if i have tried her fried sesame rice. and i said i wasnt in berlin and wont come back until monday afternoon and then she said she will come on tuesday. So, it was tuesday yesterday and she did come. I don't know if i watched too much movie or drama, if i am not wrong it is said that if you really like someone, your heart will either skip a beat or beats faster. But i realize i didn't feel anything like that nor i missed her.
Haiz, am i just a newbee in a relationship? do i need to feel that kind of sensation first to be sure?
i know some of my female friend who rejected some guys because they say they dont feel anything toward them. But there are also girls that didn't feel anything at first but madly in love after accepted the guy. (in my culture there are rarely any girl confessed to a guy first).
Now you know my problem. I dont know what to do, should i keep my heart closed to her at all or just see where this is going.
Donnerstag, März 20, 2014
Ignorant
Am not sure if i ve used this title here before. But that aside, i have never been more ashamed of myself before today. I did a verbal exam today and it was a part of my last few big important subject in all my school years. Some exams are only available on verbal terms and not always a written test. And as you knew, i´ve been studying food technology and somehow, i think i don´t have a tiny bit interest of any subjects that are related to it other than the stuff i must read on school textbook. Simply said it was not really my passion.
But that is where my ignorance coming back at me today. How could it be that a student who has been studying about food and also its molecular composition
couldn´t answer a really simple question that asked by the prof. I´ve been preparing for the exams for almost a month intensively, studied a lot of the "more complicated" stuff on textbook, but i couldn´t answer a few simple "a-must-know" question. I was really being ignorant, and it really hurt my pride to looking for answer in prof´s eyes. I believe i'll be too ashamed to ever meet the prof again.
How come i can´t figure out what our body does to salt, as which organ is responsible to break it. And not just that, i simply forgot what i learned in the beginning first few semesters as i can´t recall how the chemistry compound of protein looks like and which groups are responsible for its bonding ability. Yeah, this was not a exam for food chemistry, but the question is somehow significant to the subject that being examined (true, all things that can be defined as food is all significant to all our subjects ^^). I expected that the prof would ask more to the class related topic. I´m sure the prof never met someone like me who has no passion in his own field of study. If i were him, i am sure that i must be failed at today´s exam. I don´t deserve the
B− mark at all. Oh, look at the time. I haven´t been asleep for 34 hours now, how come i don´t feel that sleepy at all.
I just wanna be your friend.
But that is where my ignorance coming back at me today. How could it be that a student who has been studying about food and also its molecular composition
couldn´t answer a really simple question that asked by the prof. I´ve been preparing for the exams for almost a month intensively, studied a lot of the "more complicated" stuff on textbook, but i couldn´t answer a few simple "a-must-know" question. I was really being ignorant, and it really hurt my pride to looking for answer in prof´s eyes. I believe i'll be too ashamed to ever meet the prof again.
How come i can´t figure out what our body does to salt, as which organ is responsible to break it. And not just that, i simply forgot what i learned in the beginning first few semesters as i can´t recall how the chemistry compound of protein looks like and which groups are responsible for its bonding ability. Yeah, this was not a exam for food chemistry, but the question is somehow significant to the subject that being examined (true, all things that can be defined as food is all significant to all our subjects ^^). I expected that the prof would ask more to the class related topic. I´m sure the prof never met someone like me who has no passion in his own field of study. If i were him, i am sure that i must be failed at today´s exam. I don´t deserve the
B− mark at all. Oh, look at the time. I haven´t been asleep for 34 hours now, how come i don´t feel that sleepy at all.
Sonntag, März 02, 2014
People change
I was in the kitchen of our dorm earlier. and saw a neighbour friend and talk a bit and then...
Me: explaining what i was doing for the last hour that i was slicing potatoes in my room to make some chips
Girl: you know that you are very funny?
Me: no, i am not funny (it has been long that someone said that to me)
Girl: yes, you are, you are always an interesting dude
Me: ... Danke (you made my day)
am i boasting right now? nope, not really. it´s just that has been really really long time since someone said those words to me. As far as i can remember i was really a humorous kid back then in my junior high in aceh, my hometown. I told people many jokes at class and also on the way home. people always laugh at my new fresh jokes everyday. But i think everything started to change after i moved to medan to continue my study. I became a serious kid and rarely talk in the class. And now, if you ask my friend or people who know me in this city, funny or interesting are far off to describe me. I am sure they would use another characteristic to remember me well. But i really want to be remembered as a funny interesting guy badly now. hahaha.. Can i go back to the one i used to be?
Me: explaining what i was doing for the last hour that i was slicing potatoes in my room to make some chips
Girl: you know that you are very funny?
Me: no, i am not funny (it has been long that someone said that to me)
Girl: yes, you are, you are always an interesting dude
Me: ... Danke (you made my day)
am i boasting right now? nope, not really. it´s just that has been really really long time since someone said those words to me. As far as i can remember i was really a humorous kid back then in my junior high in aceh, my hometown. I told people many jokes at class and also on the way home. people always laugh at my new fresh jokes everyday. But i think everything started to change after i moved to medan to continue my study. I became a serious kid and rarely talk in the class. And now, if you ask my friend or people who know me in this city, funny or interesting are far off to describe me. I am sure they would use another characteristic to remember me well. But i really want to be remembered as a funny interesting guy badly now. hahaha.. Can i go back to the one i used to be?
Dienstag, Januar 08, 2013
class got cancelled
Berlin, 08.01.2013
Weather: rainy, 3 C degree
Me: waited 15 minutes for the bus in the early morning (7:30) under heavy rain fall. got to the classroom but no one there, as a normal good student as i can be, walk to the train station, get beack home, opened the door, get changed, post my status, hide under blanket. good night..!
Andy
Sonntag, Juli 22, 2012
Stopped growing
Hey dude, long time no see. Sorry, i havent visited you for quite a long time already now. Think, this gonna be my last post though. I lost the willingness to write, this seems not so fun to me anymore, hoho.. I think blog has made me lost my social life in some way, kidding.. Haha.. But, i do realize after having you around and have written all my worry before, you did help a lot, but what i really need is a friend that i could trust and see me trust him/her. I need to more open to some more people rather than just you alone. I find myself talk less to all my friend. Dunno if you could understand this all, but this is goodbye then. Promise to visit you sometimes, but will not adding entry anymore. Hope we are cool. And thanks for all the frequent readers. Thanks for your support too. Hope i can be better growing from now on.
And yeah, i've stopped growing from for quite some time already, i realised that, but somehow my mind doesnt want to confirm and accept it.
Many many thanks guys T-T
And yeah, i've stopped growing from for quite some time already, i realised that, but somehow my mind doesnt want to confirm and accept it.
Many many thanks guys T-T
Mittwoch, Mai 30, 2012
01.06.12 - 08.06.12
Venice, Barcelona, Paris, Brussels, and Amsterdam please be nice to us the three musketeers. I hope everything will go smoothly and according to the plan. nervous.. nervous.. yup, i really need this break, i was too depressed by many things lately, especially the pressure and burden from my uni life. should take this chance as a try out for some europe´s cities before choosing the places my family should visit next year. two birds with one stone. hope i will come back to berlin next week with new energy and new motivation and also new environmental as well (finger crossed to be able to get and move to the student accommodation room starting july). all the best for you peeps.. and lastly, hang in there and cheer up youw! you are strong, okay!
Sonntag, Mai 27, 2012
my type of girl?
yeah, i was being asked this question a few days ago by a friend. hmm.. didn´t know that she was that curious before though.. hehe.. sorry..
actually, i don´t have any specific type of girl on my mind, do i? i dunno, sometimes i am just amazed seeing smart girl, what i mean isn´t exactly that she must be very good in studying at school but she is just smart in some way, smart attitude and smart thinking maybe some of the example.. yeah, smart girl attracts my attention i think. that is my number one, haha.. but, please don´t take this seriously though, this is just what i answered at that time, without giving much thoughts. i definetely can´t decided my own fate and said i would only want to marry just this type of girl. hehe.. just want to write down all of this as a memento from this piece of time.
second, pretty isn´t the exact word i want to say, but what i mean is that, she has fair skin, which guy doesn´t want this huh? ^^ this question is real, i am really asking guys out there. =)
third, i don´t think writing humorous as a type is right, since everybody has his/her own definition of it. but at least she could understand my humour till some level. i am not saying i am very humorous kind of guy, she doesn´t has to laugh at every time i am at it but seeing that girl laugh/smile together with you because of your effort trying, what could have been make you happier than that? ^^
anyway, after saying i don´t have any specific type of girl in my life before, but in fact, i do have, and it´s shocking me as well ;) and they are that much as well, fiuh.. ok, gotta stop right there then. fiuh3x...
actually, i don´t have any specific type of girl on my mind, do i? i dunno, sometimes i am just amazed seeing smart girl, what i mean isn´t exactly that she must be very good in studying at school but she is just smart in some way, smart attitude and smart thinking maybe some of the example.. yeah, smart girl attracts my attention i think. that is my number one, haha.. but, please don´t take this seriously though, this is just what i answered at that time, without giving much thoughts. i definetely can´t decided my own fate and said i would only want to marry just this type of girl. hehe.. just want to write down all of this as a memento from this piece of time.
second, pretty isn´t the exact word i want to say, but what i mean is that, she has fair skin, which guy doesn´t want this huh? ^^ this question is real, i am really asking guys out there. =)
third, i don´t think writing humorous as a type is right, since everybody has his/her own definition of it. but at least she could understand my humour till some level. i am not saying i am very humorous kind of guy, she doesn´t has to laugh at every time i am at it but seeing that girl laugh/smile together with you because of your effort trying, what could have been make you happier than that? ^^
anyway, after saying i don´t have any specific type of girl in my life before, but in fact, i do have, and it´s shocking me as well ;) and they are that much as well, fiuh.. ok, gotta stop right there then. fiuh3x...
Montag, Mai 21, 2012
Missed my keyboard
hey you, ^^
omg.. omg.. has it been ages already since the last time i used my keyboard to fast-type for a chat. yup, i haven´t been logged in my msn and ym for like months or maybe half year already. and all this time, i have been uploading my blog and chats with all my friend via my phone (whatapps, imessages, facetime). i never log in using my laptop anymore. i forgot that how nice my keyboard really felt as i type and type. love having this feeling back coz of today´s occurence. Today, while i was bored thinkin when should i start preparing for my chinese test, a friend that has been busy all this time texting me to go online on ym. the time goes really fast as we chat and without realising it has been 3,5 hours already. glad, there are still some friends that are this nice accompanying me and talked for this long. missed this too. thanks yo.. ^^ nite all......
omg.. omg.. has it been ages already since the last time i used my keyboard to fast-type for a chat. yup, i haven´t been logged in my msn and ym for like months or maybe half year already. and all this time, i have been uploading my blog and chats with all my friend via my phone (whatapps, imessages, facetime). i never log in using my laptop anymore. i forgot that how nice my keyboard really felt as i type and type. love having this feeling back coz of today´s occurence. Today, while i was bored thinkin when should i start preparing for my chinese test, a friend that has been busy all this time texting me to go online on ym. the time goes really fast as we chat and without realising it has been 3,5 hours already. glad, there are still some friends that are this nice accompanying me and talked for this long. missed this too. thanks yo.. ^^ nite all......
Samstag, Mai 12, 2012
Final in berlin
Wow.. How long has it been, since the last football frenzy happened here in berlin. Made me thinking back to year 2006 when german was hosting for the world cup. It exactly the same atmosphere as today in sbahn train. People are wearing their favorite team shirt and emblems. They are singing and cheering. Yup, today is gonna be a final match of german league between Bayern munich and Dortmund. Seeing their fans right now, i should definetely watch the match later at 8 p.m. Hmmm, wondering whycould they influence me this much into watching.
But this gave me an idea, my family gonna visit me next year, and maybe i should prepare a ticket for next season. Since my dad is a really really huge fans of bayern, and he gonna love to see his favorite team playing live here in europe. Oh, we gonna have a really good time. Oh, I am excited aready.
Have a nice day all.. ^^
But this gave me an idea, my family gonna visit me next year, and maybe i should prepare a ticket for next season. Since my dad is a really really huge fans of bayern, and he gonna love to see his favorite team playing live here in europe. Oh, we gonna have a really good time. Oh, I am excited aready.
Have a nice day all.. ^^
Freitag, Mai 04, 2012
Samstag, April 28, 2012
ummm..
Wanna moving out... i hope with me moving out, i can strengthen back all our friendship relationship to a new level with each of my housemate. Sometimes it gonna be easier to be friends when we are not living together. Lover or siblings are exceptional cases of course. ^^ And i can have new experience by meeting more new people also. I am wishing for it. And i need time to think alone first. Let all of us keep fighting to define what our true happiness is. Peace...
Donnerstag, April 26, 2012
My birthday wishes...!
Happy 25th anniversary andy... Oh, that's very nice of you. Thank you, thanks everyone. I always think, 25 years old is the age where i really became adult at last. A really mature one.
I'm thankful that i have achieved many good things these past 25 years. Have a lot good and close friend, always have nice relationship with my family member, met a lot of good and nice people that support me also. But above all, what i am wishing for this year is that i can be more expressive toward all my precious family and friends since i am sometimes not contacting them enough, coz i am personnaly terlalu cuek, and just love to enjoy my free time alone. This much i could change rite? So, family member and friends please prepare that i am gonna put more attention to you all, be ready to chat with me everytime i think about you. Since my happiness is that you are happy having me as a friend too.. Hahaha.. Let me pursue me happiness, okay? Hehe.. Hope you can bare with me. I want to be the most fun person you know. ^^ hopefully.
Dear god, please grant me this wish. Kekeke
I'm thankful that i have achieved many good things these past 25 years. Have a lot good and close friend, always have nice relationship with my family member, met a lot of good and nice people that support me also. But above all, what i am wishing for this year is that i can be more expressive toward all my precious family and friends since i am sometimes not contacting them enough, coz i am personnaly terlalu cuek, and just love to enjoy my free time alone. This much i could change rite? So, family member and friends please prepare that i am gonna put more attention to you all, be ready to chat with me everytime i think about you. Since my happiness is that you are happy having me as a friend too.. Hahaha.. Let me pursue me happiness, okay? Hehe.. Hope you can bare with me. I want to be the most fun person you know. ^^ hopefully.
Dear god, please grant me this wish. Kekeke
Dienstag, April 24, 2012
My iphone is broken today
And yeah, it hasn´t even been full 1 years and 4 months yet, but from today on, i can´t turn off/on my iphone anymore, since the power button can´t be pressed suddenly. Now i know the reason why apple has only give just a year warranty. dam#*%§$". From what i´ve read in forums, now me without a warranty, i need to spent about 200 euro to fix the button. This must be the reason why apple throwing out a new product each year huh.. i´m thinking, should i trust apple anymore in the future like this? i don´t know le...
but that was the one and only heart breaking news for today i think. It was a busy day today, although i have no lecture today (the prof going some official trip out of town today) and i was not at home all day long, i was busy shopping with juju. The plan was, she gonna invest a quarter of my early birthday present. And it was a watch of my choice.. thanks ju.. We met at 12 noon and ate lunch at ishin, also stopping by her favorite cafe in friedrich to get some caramel macchiato, ate ice cream at haagen dasz in B5, and early birthday dinner at makoto. This was kinda like one of some effective way to let out stream after yesterday exam. And it made me think less (less worried) about my iphone. am thankful to have a friend like you, and it was a nice fun day. But can´t do this often though, may go broke sooner or later that way. haha..
but that was the one and only heart breaking news for today i think. It was a busy day today, although i have no lecture today (the prof going some official trip out of town today) and i was not at home all day long, i was busy shopping with juju. The plan was, she gonna invest a quarter of my early birthday present. And it was a watch of my choice.. thanks ju.. We met at 12 noon and ate lunch at ishin, also stopping by her favorite cafe in friedrich to get some caramel macchiato, ate ice cream at haagen dasz in B5, and early birthday dinner at makoto. This was kinda like one of some effective way to let out stream after yesterday exam. And it made me think less (less worried) about my iphone. am thankful to have a friend like you, and it was a nice fun day. But can´t do this often though, may go broke sooner or later that way. haha..
Fossil, isn´t it nice?
Ciao and rest well everyone.. i need to find some alternative solution for my iphone a.s.a.p
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