ummm..

Wanna moving out... i hope with me moving out, i can strengthen back all our friendship relationship to a new level with each of my housemate. Sometimes it gonna be easier to be friends when we are not living together. Lover or siblings are exceptional cases of course. ^^ And i can have new experience by meeting more new people also. I am wishing for it. And i need time to think alone first. Let all of us keep fighting to define what our true happiness is. Peace...

My birthday wishes...!

Happy 25th anniversary andy... Oh, that's very nice of you. Thank you, thanks everyone. I always think, 25 years old is the age where i really became adult at last. A really mature one.

I'm thankful that i have achieved many good things these past 25 years. Have a lot good and close friend, always have nice relationship with my family member, met a lot of good and nice people that support me also. But above all, what i am wishing for this year is that i can be more expressive toward all my precious family and friends since i am sometimes not contacting them enough, coz i am personnaly terlalu cuek, and just love to enjoy my free time alone. This much i could change rite? So, family member and friends please prepare that i am gonna put more attention to you all, be ready to chat with me everytime i think about you. Since my happiness is that you are happy having me as a friend too.. Hahaha.. Let me pursue me happiness, okay? Hehe.. Hope you can bare with me. I want to be the most fun person you know. ^^ hopefully.
Dear god, please grant me this wish. Kekeke

My iphone is broken today

And yeah, it hasn´t even been full 1 years and 4 months yet, but from today on, i  can´t turn off/on my iphone anymore, since the power button can´t be pressed suddenly. Now i know the reason why apple has only give just a year warranty. dam#*%§$". From what i´ve read in forums, now me without a warranty, i need to spent about 200 euro to fix the button. This must be the reason why apple throwing out a new product each year huh.. i´m thinking, should i trust apple anymore in the future like this? i don´t know le...

but that was the one and only heart breaking news for today i think. It was a busy day today, although i have no lecture today (the prof going some official trip out of town today) and i was not at home all day long, i was busy shopping with juju. The plan was, she gonna invest a quarter of my early birthday present. And it was a watch of my choice.. thanks ju.. We met at 12 noon and ate lunch at ishin, also stopping by her favorite cafe in friedrich to get some caramel macchiato, ate ice cream at haagen dasz in B5, and early birthday dinner at makoto. This was kinda like one of some effective way to let out stream after yesterday exam. And it made me think less (less worried) about my iphone. am thankful to have a friend like you, and it was a nice fun day. But can´t do this often though, may go broke sooner or later that way. haha..

Fossil, isn´t it nice?

Ciao and rest well everyone.. i need to find some alternative solution for my iphone a.s.a.p

snack & coffee time while studying on weekend

shouldn´t be thinking about gaining weight on such time... ;p

To: budi

Bud, how are you? btw, i am having chinese lesson this semester. I applied for level A.1.2. But the teacher want to kick me out already last wednesday, haha.. she told me, that i am too good to be in that class, hahaha.. gini2, ternyata wa ada bakat utk kul ke shanghai juga rupanya. But, the real problem is, i can´t read nor write chinese writing at all. haha.. And here in TU Berlin, we don´t learn it, they just teach us the alphabet one. Btw, the chat box you requested are on now. huehehe.. Use it wisely, wakakakaka... ^^

S.A.D

stop loving me so much mom... i wish i can say this to her sometimes. huh?? why, you ask me?

for an overseas student like me, i doubt no one has never experienced the homesick disease. As for me, the first time i experienced it, was after exactly 3 months studying here in berlin. I felt, i don´t belong here, far away from my dearest family. Why would i left them while they (read: especially my parents) unconditionally love and adore me. And i think, i wasn´t ready to face the reality yet, that out here nobody can´t really replace their existence. Or maybe you can say, i haven´t found someone who can make me feel that way.
i dunno exactly why am i being like this right now, i was able to overcome my first homesick just after a night, by telling myself, this is already happening, all i can do was to keep busying myself to not put much thinking to it anymore. It was an successful attempt, but after these years, those feelings keep coming back for these past months. As i keep dilligently reading this blog of a friend of mine, i think i could understand how her feeling is, how lonely she is to be far from home. Err.. how to say this, since i´m not a good writer, i maybe could hurt someone feeling by writing what i am about to write, i am so sorry, but if you understand me well, hope you can think positively that i of course don´t blame all mothers for being affectionate and love her children so much, they can´t help it. But if they, could show or give a little bit less love to us, we could be less sad right now, am i wrong?

I think i have write this in my other blog entry before, that i think my dad loves me as much as my mom or maybe a little bit more. He worries and cares about everything very very much too. And, my mom is the type that doesn´t show her love every time and place as much as my dad does. Even, i remember i told a girl i like that i care for her and worrying about her pretty much, and she told me, stop right there, you becoming more like your father that way (i believe i have told her a story about my father showing very much worry and care to my mom and their sons).hehe.. As for my mom, i called home once in a month minimum, she likes to tell stories about what happening back home, she keep updating me things in a way that i cannot miss a single one that happened there. She can goes on for about an hour or maybe two sometimes. But, she never told me things like she love me or she missed me. But she never forget to ask, how am i doing here and have i lost some weight already. These 2 questions is like her trademark questions already. hoho..

I wonder what do you do, when you missed me. Did you cry, mom? I know, i never saw you cried once, not even at my farewell as i was coming back here after my holiday last year. But because of the bond between us, mom and son, i felt you must be crying a lot, but somehow you never show me. Knowing this, i was sad. I remember, dad and some of your sisters (my aunts) ever said, that you have never been able to hold your tears, you cry easily.hahaha.. And truthfully, since i am a guy, i never cried once here, but there was a few time that i was so sad that i almost can´t hold my tears flowing down.

Could i find a girl that can be as good as you? I missed being home before starting to write all this, but after letting it out from my heart, this sadness vapored away already somehow. At last, i can sleep soundly right now. Let´s face the morning with more smile and happy thoughts. good night all

Its friday 13

I dunno if it's called bad luck or should i be happy or sad. But my class got canceled today after i walked there and met some of my friends walked back in the halfway. Oh, what a day? Was walking there full motivated and of course it´s raining. Let´s see whats coming next today and i have even get to sleep till 11 today, as if it wasn't enough andy ;)

It's a weapon

When words can be used as a weapon, it could really inflict a great damage to oneself. And it is even greater if it cones from your junior that saying things as if all he said about me were the real. I should really select who to be friend with from this experience.

Thank YOU

It's really thanks to you. Words alone really can't describe how thankful i really am now. ^^

Wait..? No wait?

Have waited for a bus in the rain for an hour. And since the bus did t seems gonna show up, i decided not to wait anymore longer and i start walking home. After 500 m walking (in the rain) the long awaited bus passed me. They were 6 of them in total going in long line like a train. How come, by the time i decided to walk, i made a wrong decision and by the time i decided to wait, i waited for nothing.

Should i waited my whole life for you too? Until you recognise me as a man? Or i should wait no more??

2,8 km on 01.04.12

2,8 km is my limit today as i drank too much pool water already coz of energy deficit. Hope my stomatch gonna be ok.
And yeah, i am fooled by cats early this morning. Damn april mop, wek... ;p